If you told me a year ago that I would be asked to speak to an entire women's ERG group about self-sabotaging I would have laughed in your face. A year ago, I was afraid to tell my boss how I was really feeling. I was always "okay" or "fine" because that was easier than talking about my real feelings. Little did I know, lying about how I was doing ended up severely impacting my mental and physical health. A year from YESTERDAY is when I first reached out for help (weird how it's been EXACTLY one year).
I reached out to Alli Rizacos, who I had met at a WISE event, months prior because knew she offered coaching help but I had no idea what this coaching would entail. I slid into her DM's on LinkedIn, and said, "Hey Alli, I am stuck and think your coaching might be able to help me." We continued to discuss how I was feeling extremely burnt out and mentally exhausted but I didn't know how to become "unstuck".
Fast forward a year - I finally feel "unstuck" and in a place where I can now help others to do the same! But, when I was asked to present to the women's ERG group at Movable Ink, my initial thoughts were... why do you want me, I have only been here for 3ish months, there has to be someone more senior who can do this, I am not qualified, I don't know what I am talking about.... and so on (all self-sabotaging thoughts... that thankfully I now know are just that)
After saying, yes, I realized that leading a "company training" on this stuff is exactly what I wanted to do - but my brain was just telling me otherwise. Something Alli had me do at the end of last year was to write a letter to 2023 me. In that letter I wrote, how by 2023 I wanted to start leading corporate trainings on the things I have learned from my own "healing" journey. I manifested this presentation and it came true a year earlier than I thought! Crazy what we can achieve when we believe in ourselves.
The presentation was incredible and the women that showed up were all so open and vulnerable that I am still glowing from all the energy from the session! I started this blog and journey because I was afraid to show up as my authentic self in the workplace. Working for a company that created the space for me to not only talk to other women about this but to have an open discussion about how we all self-sabotage and how we can collectively learn more about ourselves so we can show up more authentically in our everyday lives & work made me feel so grateful.
I am grateful to work with such incredible women at a supportive company!
I am grateful for Alli and all the wisdom she has shared with me over the past year!
I am grateful for my amazing manager, Shannon for nominating me to give this presentation!
I am grateful for all the lovely people I have connected with throughout this journey!
I am grateful.
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Also if any corporate companies out there are looking for someone to come in and speak about this to their Women Employee Resource Group - I am ready for you! 😉
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